You'll always have what you need...

...when you need it. If you know me you know this phrase is how I stay motivated...and Im lucky because it is true. Whether it is gumption at the exact right moment, or a conversation I didn't want, or the perfect job opportunity, my life brings me exactly what I need when I need it and for that I am exceptionally grateful.

There are a lot of changes coming my way, and at this point I am not positive exactly what they will bring, but overwhelmingly I have the feeling that everything will work out to put me in exactly the right place at the right time. I am thankful to be young and energetic. I am grateful for all the support I have gotten from my family and friends. And irreplacibly I am excited for the challenges that lie ahead. For what the last 5 months have thrown at me (and well the 2 years before that)...I finally feel at ease, with a little direction in where I want to be...and the path I want to walk.

I guess I was wrong about the 6 people who read my blog...I think it might be in double digits and I really appreciate all of you who take time out of their day to read my blog...and send me a message along with it. I miss you lots!

much love
<3 chelle

CARNIVAL!!!!!!

Its Carnival this week...Carnival is CRAZY. Think Halloween and then multiply by 100. The entire city is decorated...and everyone in the city is dressed up...for 4 days in a row...and it doesnt matter where anyone is, they are in costume. At the mall, walking around the city centre, resturaunts, bars...you name it people are dressed up. Its one huge party and the ENTIRE COUNTRY is invited and participating...its a great time...I LOVE it. Ill post more pictures once I take them...I bought a memory stick for my camera...without realizing that the battery wasnt charged..so typical.

And if you were wondering...thats Jaap...We both look so AMAZING in this pic I know, but imagine being in a bar with wall to wall people everyone dancing and having a great time and it gets pretty hot and sweaty theres just no getting around it...but we had an awesome time out last night...just dancing and singing all night...I got to meet a bunch of his collegues and everyone agreed that we're "perfect" for each other...and here is why...Imagine my personality, which is quite unique, loud, outgoing, upbeat, and crazy...this boy is pretty much the same...which makes for a wicked good time...anyways i like him and Ill keep you updated on that...and Carnival...much love.

<3 chelle

So...ive been slacking...

ok I get it...i havent written in 2 and a half months and people are really starting to feel out of the loop...well I guess the 6 people who actually read this feel out of the loop...but still I must say sorry to my loyal readers who have been checking my page to get updates in my life...and every time have been dissappointed to still see the blog I wrote last year as the first one on the screen. But here I am today...ready to update you in my life.

To my credit I would like to say that I have tried to sit down and write a blog I don't know on 20 different occasions and each time I am inturrupted by a phonecall from half way across the world...or my boyfriend bugging me that dinner is ready and he likes to spend quality time with me cuz we just dont get to hang out that much...ok every weekend and a few times a week...but yeah we have a good time together sooo....back to my story...I just havent gotten one finished.

And thats probably a good thing because the last 2 months have been a roller coaster ride of thrills and chills...with enough loopty loops, and upside down corscrew spins to make even the most masterful roller coaster riding genious be absolutely nausious...nevertheless...Im a pleased to say that things are starting to settle down a bit...and Im pretty sure the hurricane and blizzard (which have all been going on at the same time) have choosen new locations to camp out...at least thats what Im hoping.

Its not over yet, I know...however Im starting to figure out what I want...for now. I have officially stopped trying to figure out my entire life in a day...its just a little too much to handle. Instead Im just taking it one day at a time...with one goal in mind...DO WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY. And over the last 2 months thats what Ive been doing...clearing my life of the things that I hate, or the people that treat me badly, or the situations that in the end bring more heart ache and tears than good times. And although it is hard...I absolutely positively HATE confrontation...with anyone...now that its been done I feel like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders...

I did recently find out though...that all that baggage was NOT the cause of my shoulder injury. It is flared up again FULL FLEGED...so much so that Im almost ready to put it back in a sling...despite the pain...Im still playing...of course...and pretty well I might add...its nice for it to be a no pressure thing and just have fun...and Ive found out that I play a hell of a lot better when Im having fun...too bad I didnt figure that out in college...maybe just a lil less focus would have been a good thing for me...oh well.

Other than that...In the past 2 months Ive done quite a bit of traveling...went home...came back to eindhoven...went to germany...went to Belgium...went to Paris (AMAZING CITY...go there once in your life...the city is a masterpiece and I cant wait to go back) and went to Amsterdam a few times. I havent had too much time...or money for that matter to get much further than that...but Im thinking to take a snowboarding trip in march to either austria or switzerland...havent decided which both would be amazing...but Ill keep you updated!

And with that in a nutshell...Im pretty good...finally...and I hope things continue to go well...

A side note...I have decided for the remainder of my stay as an au pair to write a "The Tailored Guide for being an Au Pair: things you should know before you go." Im using my blog to publish so note that it is copyrighted under my name...I would love for you to read it...just go to http://thetailoredguidetobeinganaupair.blogspot.com and you can read it...and i think you should...cuz its going to be quite halarious...and when you do read it...PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE comment let me know what you think and be honest...dont say you like it just cuz you like me haha...Im gonna write the first chapter soon...so stay updated!!

I love you all and miss you lots...much love

<3, chelle